State: 'Disconnected and Gross' -kira902k
I've been watching Avatar the Last Airbender for the past 6 hours. I should be studying for the Increasingly Important Exams that are in 3 weeks but I know that if I do, I'll get scared and might start to cry.
I've tried YouTubing, Facebooking, eating, and attempted to learn something on the guitar but everything makes me feel so disconnected. I have 3 whole days of freedom and have nothing planned. There's nothing to look forward to. I feel like I could fit in to be one of those popular people, going out and doing stuff with my 'cool' gang. The attractive part of that isn't the 'popular' thing, it's more the 'doing'. I feel so extremely boring.
I'm the type that does my homework as soon as I can, I always aim to be free of stress and burden. Every time I get an assignment I try to finish it. Boredom is what I aim for but, when I achieve it, I can't stand it. I always make 'to do' lists for the sole purpose of crossing off the tasks that I complete. That way I have a goal. Having a blank list is what I aim for. I want to have nothing to do.
I'm so bored of being bored.
Hearing: Boxcar Blood
Eating: Organically Dried Jack-fruit
